Missing her

Apparently today is going to be a I-miss-Rebekah-so-much-I-can-hardly-stand-it sort of day. It crept up and sort of surprised me this morning and I'm not sure why.

Maybe because yesterday was her 100 day mark out on the mission?
Or because I went to the farewell of her best friend and college roommate on Sunday?
And then seeing all the pictures of her family dropping her at the MTC on Wednesday brought back so many of my own memories?
Or maybe because I put together and sent a package to her yesterday and had to fill out all the customs forms to get it to her in London?
Or because in preparation to send that package I spent some time down in her bedroom trying to find her scripture stickers and was overwhelmed with nostalgia seeing all of her things?
Maybe it's because I've been talking with the mothers of some of her high school friends who are also on missions about planning a little missionary momma get together?
Or because this weekend is my birthday and last year even though she had just left for college, she came home to celebrate with me...but this year she can't?
Or maybe perhaps because this morning I stumbled across the blog of a senior missionary couple who have posted not only numerous pictures of their time in London and the Hyde Park Chapel Visitors Centre, but also of Rebekah and the other Visitor Centre sisters...pictures I'd never seen before?

It could be any one or all of these things together...or maybe none of them at all. Do I even need a reason, really? I miss her every single day. I am so incredibly proud of her. I'm so glad she is in London...serving, sharing and loving. Today though, the tears are flowing and my heart hurts. It's just one of those days.